Monday, August 08, 2005
5th Assignment - A Lesson About LifeI know most of you don’t know that I write poems on my spare time, but my poems are not about love, romace or any of that kind of stuff.
Well, actually it’s the total opposite. No, not hate but nearly there. I write depressing poems.
Okay, let me elaborate, I write poems about death, suicide, sadness, dark poems, depression .. well, u get the picture.
My poems are all made up, not real, imaginary. I even wrote a suicide letter, it’s very original BUT not true.
When I wrote that, I kind of expect people to think that there’s something wrong with me, but that was not reached because I always reassure them that the poem I wrote was totally fictional beforehand, but my perspective on people changed one evening.
My mum and I was browsing some magazines at a magazine rack. When I was flipping the pages, a story caught my eye. It was about suicide, and since my poems mostly based on suicide, I read it.
It was about a man who killed himself and said that he could not take life anymore..and there it was, right smack on my face, a real suicide letter.
It says there that he led a good teenage life and was even popular in high school. That kept me wondering why he would even killed himself when his family was good and led an even better teenage life? He was so cheerful that nobody noticed the darkness he kept inside.
I guess you can’t actually judge a book by it’s cover. I can’t actually remember the whole story as it was a month ago when I read that, but I still remember the suicide letter, i'm still recovering from that one.
Somehow that article taught me a lesson in life, u can't actually tell if a person is happy with his/her life just because he/she led a good life. I mean okay, for example, look at me, i write depressing poems and yet i'm not depressed. I guess my look on people changed just because of the article.
Okay, let me finish this off with a poem i wrote about me liking dark poems...
I like depressing poems, i just don't know why
It shows the emotion about death & suicide
Don't get me wrong, i won't do anything bad
Like killing myself or attempting something like death.
There still more but i guess i'll just stop here before this gets longer than it already is.
9:18 AM*
